had aep cip today.
was tired, but happy.
got to know really pleasant and nice seniors.
got to see the joyful and delighted faces of the residents.
got to converse with the friendly aunties whom were wuber cute.
got to talk with friends on the bus to and fro.
got to know teachers/aep/art better.
what a wonderful day.




i guess i get happy/sad really easily, do i?

I still hate it whenever I thought I have let go of everything
And that everything seems so wonderful now as compared to before
Yet they still seems to replay itself in my mind
And make me so upset.
I have moved on, I thought.
But some things, I realize, perhaps.
It was all bluff on my own.
It still aches so badly, worse than before.
Let me go, let me be free like I thought I was.
You said I belong there, but why can’t I feel it?
Perhaps it was just, you that felt so.
I relooked back as you said, but well, I have long already been erased.
I moved on, but left my heart behind.
But my leaving you guys didn't seem to mind.











Did I ever belong there?
I never did, and never will.
I almost cried, again. But i didn't this time.
I'm just too experienced for another like this. to happen once again.




I want to be happy to live
-and live to be happy.
well, it aint that easy. but i'll try and somehow make it work.








A 觉得自己之前太过于执著，所以不知道一直在身边的好。现在终于放弃，放下了，她终于感觉到了生活中的平凡与快乐。原来事情是那么的容易耶，她心想。之前，心胸那么的宽小，仿佛永远都踏不出那阴暗的角落头。现在放下了，才发现周遭的好，周遭的花草树木。原来，解药是去放下，是要宽容，是要珍惜一切一切，而不是只存于我那渺小的世界。感谢上帝，让我自由！

i realised there are some things I can't anticipate too much about in life.
that includes studies, friendships, ccas, and many more.
there's so much on my list,
i don't know what more I can anticipate for.
perhaps, you'll think that i'm classifying too many things into that narrow lil' idea of mine.
but, there's so many things that I am so disappointed about.
so many things I initially thought,
"wow, thanks god. i guess i'm gonna have a wonderful day ahead."
But ahah, pop! my fantasy's gone. what the-.
it's like why i'm I going through all this.
hey, is it me or something?

i still think i'm always the spare tyre of others.
oh, like the song mrsheng went through, on the 'I'm so Ordinary'.
I'm like the spare old shoe, without her, then will I be remembered.
Sigh, sigh, sigh.

am i getting slightly emo?
ahaha. i don't know.
and hey guys, thankyou.
i see my tagboard with something to see already.
thankyou.
(:

and guess what, i drew 3 pictures, which i'm satisfied with in this 2 days!
happy. happy.
but i think my drawings are slightly to the emo side.
so, erm, is that a good thing?
show you guys other day :D
they're really emo. but then, i can't draw very well lah.
ahahah.
i slacked today.O.O
i cannot stand myself eh, ...
bang! valerie, go die again.

guess what?
i drew two pictures in my new A5 sketchbook.
im super wuber happy (:
hahah.

i bought many sketchbooks over time,
and never quite started doing anything in them.
well, now i will.
i've got a goal, an aim, and something i want to acheive and obtain.
so, jiayou!
i'll be carrying them where ever i go.
yupp, ... i hope.

i think i prefer the time when the spammers were present.
at least there's something to see on my tagboard...
now's there's really nothing left to see D:

i want a polaroid.
i want a dianaf+ fish eye lens.

i want. i want.
...i think im wanting too much.

valerie, stop daydreaming.
bang! go die.

i want to change skin!
but eh, im too lazy to do so.
perhaps, soon?
(;